Becoming the Brahman: What Changed After the Void Gareth Duignam shares a personal account of a later spiritual shift he calls becoming Brahman, distinguishing it from his earlier experience of the void during Nirvakalpa Samadhi. He describes how the experience stabilized, how perception and identity changed for about six months, and why he sees it as a deeper step than temporary unity states. In this episode, Gareth explains the trigger for the shift, the disorienting aftermath, and why he considers it the first true stage of enlightenment. He also contrasts fleeting spiritual absorption with a permanent change in identity. Key topics Gareth distinguishes Brahman consciousness from the earlier direct experience of the void, saying this was a later stabilization, not a one-time visit. He says the shift began on September 25 after 108 repetitions of the Mahashidasi Mantra, followed by a 30-minute chanting recording that intensified the meditation. Gareth describes hearing the inner phrase “Now he is you” and seeing Shiva on a snowy mountaintop, which he interpreted as Brahman. He says the key realization was that direct experience plus clear knowing were both required for the shift to fully lock in. He describes a prolonged period where objects, people, and places felt as though they only existed while he looked at them. He says family, friends, and even his home felt unreal when not in direct perception, and he could go days or weeks without thinking about his parents. Gareth frames Brahman as the canvas of creation, with everything, including gods and goddesses, appearing within it. He emphasizes that this was not a temporary spiritual high, but a change in identity: “the knower of Brahman becomes Brahman.” He says his sense of devotion, personal karma, and investment in the story of a separate self dissolved during this period. He reports the state lasted about six months, after which there was a gradual return of love and a slow re-entry into ordinary perception. 📖 From my book: Waking Up from the Dream 🌐 Website & sessions: https://www.truespiritualawakening.eu 🔔 Subscribe for more direct experiences of spiritual awakening, Self-enquiry, Samadhi, and the unfolding of consciousness. Timestamps 00:00 - Intro 01:39 - The trigger: 108 mantra repetitions and deepening with a chant recording 02:09 - The mantra merges with awareness and the vision of Shiva appears 03:08 - Why direct experience and clear knowing both matter 03:55 - The world begins to feel real only when looked at 04:24 - Family, friends, and home seem to vanish when attention moves away 04:53 - Brahman as the canvas in which all creation appears 05:50 - Why this is not a temporary visit but a permanent identity shift 06:20 - What changes when part of awareness remains one with the absolute 07:29 - Why temporary absorptions differ from becoming Brahman 08:19 - Devotion and personal karma dissolve 09:23 - The six-month duration and gradual return of love 09:52 - Why Gareth sees this as a deeper stage than unity consciousness 10:50 - Closing reflection and invitation for others to share similar experiences

The “I” Thought Dissolved – Sahaja Samadhi Explained In this episode I share the precise shift when the root “I” thought dissolved. During a Shaktipat intensive with Jan Esmann in 2020, I was shown the exact mechanism: a conduit running from the spiritual heart up to the intellect. The “I” thought (the root sense of being a separate someone) normally travels up this tube. In the vision, that conduit had been severed. The “I” had nowhere left to go and fell back into the heart, dissolving completely. This is the movement into what is traditionally called Sahaja Samadhi — the natural state. I also connect this experience with the clear teachings of Ramana Maharshi, who repeatedly pointed to the “I”-thought as the root of the mind and said that when its source is found, the “I” itself vanishes. In this video I describe: • The vision of the heart, the chimney, and the “whack-a-mole” “I” thought • How the conduit from heart to intellect was cut • The difference between Unity Consciousness and the dissolving of the “I” • What remains when the root sense of “I” is gone • How this matches Ramana’s teaching on Self-enquiry and Sahaja Samadhi This is one of the quietest yet most decisive shifts on the path. 📖 From my book: Waking Up from the Dream 🌐 Website & sessions: https://www.truespiritualawakening.eu 🔔 Subscribe for more direct experiences of spiritual awakening, Self-enquiry, Samadhi, and the unfolding of consciousness. #SahajaSamadhi #IThought #RamanaMaharshi

I Merged With the Mind of God – The Cyan Blue Supreme Being In this episode I share one of the most beautiful and absolute experiences of the entire spiritual journey — the direct merger with the Mind of God. This happened the day after the entry into the Void (Brahman), while the Supramental Force was still pulling me into deep Samadhi daily. What opened was a vast ocean of shimmering cyan-blue consciousness. I did not observe it. I became it. It was pure intelligence, pure love, and pure Being — the unmanifest Supreme Being. What I later recognised as the Mind of God. In this video I describe: • What led up to the experience • Exactly how the cyan-blue ocean felt • The difference between the Void and this state • Why it remains one of the most perfect experiences of the path • How it changed my understanding of God-realisation This is a direct account of merging with the Supreme Being. 📖 From my book: Waking Up from the Dream 🌐 Website & sessions: https://www.truespiritualawakening.eu 🔔 Subscribe for more direct experiences of spiritual awakening, Samadhi, Brahman, and the unfolding of consciousness. #MindOfGod #SupremeBeing #SpiritualAwakening #Brahman #samadhi 0:00 Introduction 1:15 The experience before the merger 2:10 Opening into cyan-blue consciousness 3:26 What the experience felt like 4:55 How it differed from the void 5:43 Returning to the body 5:49 Why the experience matters 6:30 The merger’s place in the wider spiritual journey 7:10 Closing thoughts

Nothing Exists There – My Direct Experience of the Void (Brahman) In this episode I share one of the most absolute and confronting experiences of the entire spiritual journey — the direct entry into the Void, pure Brahman. This happened during the intense period of daily Samadhi brought by the Supramental Force. One evening the force took me beyond everything. What remained was pure nothingness. No self. No body. No world. No thoughts. No story. Only a faint, dim awareness — and even that could not be said to belong to anyone. I describe: • The fear that arose just before the shift • What the complete absence of existence actually felt like • How the weeks of forced Samadhi prepared the ground • What it was like coming back into the body afterwards • How this experience relates to the later merger with the Mind of God This is not a philosophical talk about Brahman. This is the lived encounter with the reality prior to all creation. 📖 From my book: Waking Up from the Dream 🌐 Website & sessions: https://www.truespiritualawakening.eu 🔔 Subscribe for more direct experiences of spiritual awakening, Samadhi, Kundalini, and the unfolding of consciousness. (00:00) Opening the episode (00:32) Why this experience emerged from weeks of daily samadhi (01:01) Multiple samadhi states and the effect on ordinary identity (02:10) The evening meditation when the void first arrived (02:38) The wave of fear and the sense that nothing would return (03:31) Surrendering at the edge of absolute blackness (04:04) What the void felt like with no self, world, or time (05:06) Recognizing the experience as Brahman beyond form (06:08) Returning after 90 minutes and the fear of re-emergence (06:32) How ongoing samadhis prepared the system for this event (07:18) What remains after touching absolute nothingness (08:14) The humbling aftermath and the role of daily samadhi